I am feeling too good

Michael Buble Crazy Love Tour
Singapore Indoor Stadium
9 March 2011, 8 pm

Baby and I totally dig it; singing along to our favourite tunes and dancing to the up tempo rhythms.

Michael Bublé has such tremendous stage presence and audience appeal it can just melt any woman's heart. He is indeed a charmer and a crooner.

Thank you Baby Chee for this wonderful birthday present. It was worth every cent.

What makes your biological clock tick?

Sometimes when you see grandparents and their grandchildren on the train, does it make you feel that you'd want kids?perhaps it depends what you are feeling then or the situation you are in.

would age have a strong play in this? What do single middle aged women feel about being unmarried? Though many would say thaat they won't need to have kids to be happy, is that usually true? I mean, is there one moment in their lives, yes, one moment, where they feel the urge to bear children?is there a sign that your body somehow knows it's at its prime to mate? To carry on the bloodline?

What happens when you hear wailing kids?does it wash away all thoughts about even having kids?mothers always say there's a different joy children bring. It's also a different phase in life this thing called motherhood. How old is too old to have kids? Is it easier rearing animals than kids?

I do not know what makes my biological clock tick. What I do know is with kids come a life long commitment. I can't imagine the sacrifices. Bt i'm willing to try...in time..

A Mucous Laden Brain

I don't know why.

But I just want to lie down and cry.

Love is Strength

I am pleased to share that I have now progressed in my strength training components. Soon, I might just be posting a video on facebook to showcase it.

13 February 2011

Deadlifts

3 sets of 3 reps

18.75kg + 18.75kg + 20kg (OB)

Squats

3 sets of 3 reps

11.25kg + 11.25kg + 20kg (OB)

Actually, my objective is to do a pull up. I attempted a pull up with the assistance of Baby Chee. Slowly but surely, I should be able to do 1 unassisted pull up in 3 months time i.e. somewhere in May 2011. So watch out for that blog shout out!! : ))

Also, I impressed myself with 2 unassisted triceps dips. Although they were not "full" dips, you should've seen the widest smile on Baby Chee's face. Yes Yes, I know you are proud.. hee hee hee..

14 February 2011

My whole body is aching, especially the arms. I love the feeling and the way my body is shaping up.

Thank You Baby Chee. I am truly loving my workout regime. Look forward to more trainings with you!

Happy Valentine's Day!

Happy

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can't have everything
Don't you take chances
Might feel the pain
Don't you love in vain
Cause love won't set you free
I can't stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
Just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
But all these days, they feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me out of here
I can't stand by your side, ohh no
And watch this life pass me by, pass me by

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh

So any turns that I can't see,
like I'm a stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don't say anything

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me

I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy

Playmate Bunny loves you

Playmate Bunny



Loves Youuuuuu!!



Have a wonderful year ahead with me!

Gym progress

All my entries have been so depressing and I bet you have to agree.

My improvement in my weight training has been very motivating. So let's see how I have progressed so far for my strength components. I mean at least it is more lighthearted compared to older entries.

On 30 January 2011,

Deadlifts

5 sets of 3 reps

15kg + 15kg + 20kg (OBW)

OBW: Olympic Bar weight

Squats

3 sets of 3 reps

10kg + 10kg + 20kg (OBW)

You can see the major improvement comparing to my previous post a week or 2 ago. All thanks to the arduous training I went through with Baby Chee as my fervent coach. Boy was he impressed with my improvement.

The attempted 10kg for squats was slightly too ambitious but at least I know where I stand.

I will be working out for the last time tomorrow, 1 February, before CNY. My regime will be as follows:

Deadlifts

5 sets of 4 reps

12.5kg + 12.5kg + 21kg (OBW)

Note: OBW has a different weight from the above because i am working out at a different gym

Squats

5 sets of 4 reps

8.25kg + 8.25kg + 21kg (OBW)

Circuits

5 sets of 5 reps for all 3 exercises:

1) Underhand Rows (using OBW)
2.5kg + 2.5kg + OBW

30 seconds rest

2) Bulgarian Front Split Squats
with 5kg dumb bell

30 seconds rest

3) Inclined a notch narrow chested bench press
with 5 kg dumb bells

30 seconds rest

Assisted pull up
Do as much as possible at 30kg assisted weights. DO NOT do to failure

Inclined Pull Ups a.k.a Inverted Rows
3 sets of ladders 5,4,3,2,1 with 15 seconds rest in between i.e.

5 reps, 15 seconds rest
4 reps, 15 seconds rest

so on and so forth

Push Ups (safety pin at 3rd hole from bottom of squat rack)
3 sets of ladders 5,4,3,2,1 with 15 seconds rest in between like above

Finisher
I enjoy my farmer's walk.
3 sets of 14kg dumb bells, 10 burpees

-DONE-

Special note to Baby Chee: Please correct the above regime should you spot any mistake.

After 1 February, get ready to indulge in BA KWA!!!!!!! heh heh heh

feeling this way

I try to hide from your anger and temper.
I don't know when you'll blow up at me,
like the roaring winds and thunder,
I live in constant fear.
Please dry my tears, I beg of you, my dear.

Bad Day

I don't know what came over me today. It just ain't a good day though it was a good hair day. I mean not that I didn't have enough rest. Perhaps it was accumulated sleep debt.
Perhaps everything was all bottled up.
Perhaps my job is getting boring.
Perhaps I am just tired but I do not know it.
Perhaps I am just getting old.

Oh I don't know.

*Scowl*

Grenade

Easy come, easy go, that's just how you live
Oh, take, take, take it all but you never give
Should've known you was trouble from the first kiss
Had your eyes wide open, why were they open?
Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is
I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my head on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya
I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same
No, no, no, no
Black, black, black and blue, beat me 'til I'm numb
Tell the devil I said, hey, when you get back to where you're from
Mad women, bad women, that's just what you are, yeah
You'll smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car
Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is
I'd catch a grenade for ya

Throw my head on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya
I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for ya, baby
But you won't do the same
If my body was on fire
Ooh, you'd watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me, you're a liar
'Cause you never, ever, ever did, baby
But darling, I'd still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my head on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya
I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same
No, you won't do the same
You wouldn't do the same
Ooh, you never do the same
No, no, no, no

My heart

Suddenly, it all stopped.

I just died.

Workout Regime

I guess since I always forget the weights I use for my work out and also the definitions of certain exercise types, I will use my blog to help me remember and then improve my strength along the way.

Tonight at the gym, I am going to do upper body and lower body alternate exercises using an Olympic bar.

Inclined Pull

"Ladder"

5 reps
Rest 30 seconds

4 reps
Rest 30 seconds

3 reps
Rest 30 seconds

2 reps
Rest 30 seconds

1 rep
Rest 30 seconds

Repeat the above for another set if up to it.

Female push ups

4 reps
Rest 30 seconds

3 reps
Rest 30 seconds

2 reps
Rest 30 seconds

1 rep
Rest 30 seconds

Continue with another set

Circuit Training Exercises
A circuit workout combines cardio and strength training if you are short on time. An exercise is completed one after another with little or no rest in between.

5 sets of 5 reps each

1) Full Squats - 1.25kg each side
Rest 30 seconds

2) Shoulder Press - without weights (i might just use a bar bell of 10kg if the Olympic bar proves too heavy for me)
Rest 30 seconds

3) Deads - 5kg each side
Rest 30 seconds

4) Bend over rows - 3.75kg each side
Rest 30 seconds

Finisher

Holding a light weight 1/2kg dumb bells in each hand, do as many burpees within 20 seconds
Rest 10 seconds

Continue above 4 times

WORKOUT COMPLETE

Courtesy of Baby Chee
Thanks for staying up so late for the past 2 nights to drill the concepts into my head

30 December

As tears flow, I realised that it is already past midnight. It is 30 December 2010. It is my birthday.

Happy Birthday to Me.

Am I so difficult to understand?

I am bleeding inside.

Everything seems to be eating me alive.

Sigh...what is wrong?

Trouble Bubble Burst

I am non confrontational. And though misunderstandings arose while holidaying in Perth, I prefer to leave it in Perth. I do not want to pursue them. I left them at bay. Or so I thought.

Yet these misunderstandings found a way of following me back home. And as if it was not enough, snug within them were a bag of lies. Lies and more.

So what if it's family? Lies are lies and accusations are accusations. It sours relationships and burns bridges. I wish we weren't there to be part of it. My long awaited holiday did not need such trauma and pain.

I too don't need harsh words. I don't need more lies. I don't need name calling. I find it all childish and mindless and a total waste of time. MY TIME. I don't see a need to pursue further because it is endless. It is CRAP. So go get a life and get the hell out of mine. I don't need anymore trouble.

Down Under and Back

It was a fantastic trip with Baby Chee down under. Aunty Grace and Uncle Chow were great hosts sharing with us many stories and preparing dinner almost every night. Grocery shopping is of course one of the highlights of this 9-day trip other than the most important reason we were there for - Delise's wedding.

We had a few days of "holidaying" before the actual wedding preparation. We visited Harbourtown and shopped abit. Girls' stuff are always on better sale than guys. I got myself a corset, a pair of jeans, round tee neck shirts, high waist belt and also a new bikini, all at relatively cheap prices like less than AUS$20. Just one day of shopping and the rest, grocery browsing where we bought heaps of kangaroo meat + frozen wild berries. Unbelievably cheap! Singapore should really import them. Good for health, high in fibre, low in cholesterol and low in fat.

Building up to the wedding was no doubt stressful but all worthwhile. I am definitely honoured to be the maid of honour. Being there on my cousin's wedding day was a touching affair. I am glad to have been part of it.

See you again Perth. And I love you Hippo Creek!

Down Under

No. I am not down under the weather.

I am going down under!!!!

And that is in 2 days time mind you. I cannot wait for this long awaited trip.

It will be for a holiday and to attend my cousin's wedding.

Stay tuned for more photos on facebook!

Kangaroo meat, lamb rack, beef steaks here I come!!!!

MOoooooooo...Mehh........

BOooooooiinnNNNNNNGgggggggg!!!

So what now? Another Day?

Recently, I have been gorging myself crazy when I am stressed at work or when my relationship goes awry. Most of the time, the latter. I cannot find a better way than to eat and work late at the same time.

I believe it's when I prefer to solve things after the storm is over but my other half wants to settle it there and then. I am someone whose temper subsides almost as quickly as it erupts. Sounds like a good trait if the other party has the same personality. More often than not, by the time I cooled off, my other half's pressure starts to boil. I feel that it's so crappy and shitty. Then everything drags.

I feel that there are pros and cons settling problems on the spot Likewise, there are pros and cons running away from the problem at hand. Many will feel otherwise but if I am not someone who is rational enough when emotional, I doubt it is a good time to do any form of settlement when an argument arises. In fact, it just makes matters worse.

I am so clueless when my partner is such an opposite when it comes to matters like these. Because of our differences, things haven't been easy when we fail to see eye to eye. I get distracted, I cannot concentrate on my work, I keep asking myself why. What am I not seeing? What am I missing? I know we shouldn't let problems accumulate. People say it's best to trash things out. I say it is best to trash things out face to face but how often does life allow that? If things happen at work, can we? If things happen in public, can we? (yes we can if we don't mind everyone else to be staring at us) If things happen at home with family members around, should we? Notice the word used is "should".

I just need to air this out because I have been feeling so outta sorts the whole day at work. It has been such an unproductive day. There's so much left undone. There's so much that needs my attention. So much that cannot be left for another day.

Dear Aunt Agony

I am always making mistakes.
I can never get things right.
The more careful I am, the harder I try, the more mistakes I make.
I get stressed and then flustered and then all I can think of is giving up.
Could it be I never try hard enough?

URGH! I hate myself.

2 months and 3 days later

It was a period to find myself and what I wanted.

I have been job hopping since I completed my second degree in hospitality. I went after that dream, that passion only to realise that the meager pay, irregular working hours ain't for a person like me. Yes I must admit that I love interacting with people and meeting their expectations makes me happy but that is not everything in a job. Eventually I asked myself at this age, where do I see myself in the next 10 years time? Seems like a long time but I assure you that time passes very fast when we count the weeks and months that go by. 4 weeks becomes 8 and then 12 months. Do we remember in detail what we have done just a week ago? It could just be the routines that we recollect.

I must say I was in urgent need of finding a job and earning my keep. I never stopped sending my resumes and burying my head in Saturday's classifieds. There were moments in between where I broke down wondering when I will find something that meets my expectations. Fortunately, I have Baby Chee with me, encouraging me every step of the way, telling me not to rush, not to despair. I have friends who say it is better to spend a little more time finding a job that I will stay in rather than just taking any that comes just because I need one to support my finances. Thanks to all of you, I am still sane.

I took the 2 jobless months to get back on my workout regime, family bonding (I'd dinner home every day to save $$), doggie walks, books (one of which is The Art of Racing in the Rain) and heaps of online video streaming.

And with enough time to rest, I am down with a sore throat. GREEEEEeeeaaaAAAT!