Wednesday, May 17, 2006

The Fight

The fight to survive

The fight to stay awake

The fight to erase the guilt

The fight to change mindsets

The fight to enjoy

The fight for a lifetime of enjoyment

The fight for love

The fight to care

The fight to understand why

The fight to dream

The fight to die

The fight to decide

The fight to escape

The fight to socialize

The fight to be yourself

The fight to grow up

The fight to rest

The fight to be happy

The fight to be sad

The fight to feel

The fight to desire

The fight to stay alive

The fight to be sure

The fight to be certain

The fight to abstain

The fight to be beautiful

The fight to live life to its fullest

The fight to make it meaningful

The fight to be good

The fight to be bad

The fight to break free

The fight to hurt

The fight to anger

The fight to calm

The fight to worry

The fight to play

The fight for pleasure

The fight for eternal lust

The fight for fame

The fight for you

The fight for me

The fight for them

The fight for ever

The fight to keep on fighting

The fight for strength

The fight for change

The fight to believe

The fight to trust

The fight to lie

The fight to kill

The fight to murder

The fight for freedom

Why are we always fighting to keep alive? Are we really fighting for ourselves or simply how society wants us to be? Do we keep on repeating the same mistakes over and over again and never learning but just improvising on each and every one? Are we really smiling? Are we really happy? The truth is there's nothing more important and no better time to be happy than right now. Challenges in life - better to admit as much and decide to be happy in spite of it all. We must use the mind to get what we want rather than letting the mind use us to get what it wants. We have to assert self control, we have to love ourselves. How many times do we reiterate the latter phrase and then indulge in that moment of "folly"? How many times do we need to fall, pick ourselves up again before standing without crumbling into the thorns of temptations and lust? Is one never enough? Are we never satisfied? We (women) never fail to ask the classic question "Where is it going from here" when bound by the chains of emotions and love. Should we go with the flow or follow our heart?

"Oh my love, my darling, I've hungered for your touch, a long, lonely time. And time goes by, so slowly and time, can do so much, are you still mine? I need your love, Oh I need your love, God speed your love to me. Lonely rivers flow to the sea, to the sea, to the open arms of the sea, Lonely rivers sigh, wait for me, wait for me, I'll be coming home wait for me."

"Promise me you'll wait for me, coz' I'll be saving all my love for you...I need to know you feel the same way too.." Promise me pls...pls promise me...wait for me...pls wait for me......I did so much wrong...take me back pls...let me repent my sins I hurt myself with again and again..The moment of folly..the moment of lust...the moment of fun and a lifetime of pain..

The fight for me, myself and I.