Tuesday, June 14, 2011

It is only a number game

Sometimes I wonder if I should be honest in my blog. I mean, not that I have never been but there are somethings that maybe others prefer to be discreet about.
Today, I feel that age just caught up with me. I remembered I drew up a plan in my head during my younger years; to marry at the age of 26; have kids by 30 and have a good career going for me. It was a good dream coming to think about it now. I am 29, ok almost, not doing something I really want and also not married, let alone have kids. I wonder how long this phase will last.
I know I am ambitious. Somewhere within me is still aggressive, still yearning to do more with my life, aspiring to earn lots and be debt free.
I would say the biggest regret was to enter into a corporate board a little too early and not given the opportunity to ggrow, bogged down by processes and bureucracy, stiffling my creativity. Now I am nowhere. No experience well enoguh to render me a higher position, no company willing to give me the opportunity. Maybe the regret should not be the first job but the wrong course of study during uni days.
so now what? Start all over since after all, they always say the sky's the limit and age is only a number? Easy to say when you don't've plans to settle down, have kids or worry about your finances in the long run.

All of it gives me stress. Day by day, year by year. Sigh..