I hope that the moon and stars above
Shine upon me with their might and
Take away the darkness in my heart
That is tearing me apart

I hope that the waves and the tides of the sea
Come crashing down onto me
To wash away the tears
For eternity

I hope that the wind and rain
Blow and fall with such vigor
To strip me off the fears
That cause much terror

I hope that you and I
Understand more of each other
So that in our lifetimes
It will be love, forever.

A CUT above the rest

I celebrated my baby's birthday in style at CUT Singapore by the famous celebrity chef Wolfgang Puck. It was a great dinner choice, and I have to say Baby Chee wholeheartedly agreed with me.

We ordered 2 appetisers:

1) Hokkaido Scallop “Carpaccio,” Shaved Myoga, Wasabi-Kosho Ponzu and 















2)  Bone Marrow Flan, Mushroom Marmalade, Parsley Salad 

These were followed by the stars of the show:

3) From left to right:

Tasting of New York Sirloin
U.S.D.A. PRIME, Illinois Corn Fed 120g
American “Kobe Style” From Snake River Farms 120g
Japanese Wagyu from Shiga Prefecture 60g

American Wagyu / Angus “Kobe Style” Beef From Snake River Farms, Idaho
Ribeye Steak 280g

It was done medium-rare to perfection and it was mouth-watering to the maximum.

Like always, I am a greedy gal and we decided to go for the 3-kind cheese platter shown below:

4) Again from left to right: Moo Moo Cow Shropshire Blue Cheese, Sheep Cheese (forgot the name), Goat Cheese (my favourite but Alas! I cannot remember the name!)

 5) To end: The Chocolate Souffle that was most orgasmic!

6) And of course, with compliments from the chef for the birthday boy:

a) Goat's Milk Ice Cream

 

b) Melt-in-the-mouth- chocolate truffle cake

Finally, I just want to say I love you Baby Chee. Looking forward to celebrating all our birthdays together!

 

Always Feeling My Love

I thought I'd dedicate this awesome song to my one and only - Baby Chee.

I feel compelled

It is almost heart stopping but like how I have publicised the emotion over facebook from time to time, I have to sing my love for you on my blog page too!

Baby Chee, I love you. Thank you for winning the Class 95 Office Games challenge for me! I await our many hotel stays and gluttony indulgences! Of course, I await the day we start our lives together at Punggol. heh.

THUNDER BUDDIES FOR LIFE!!!

As if Thursday was not bad enough

I already said I hated people hitting my head; be it using your fingers or your hands. Why do you have to take a recycled bag with 4 seminar folders to throw at my head? Is it a game to you? What the F is wrong with you?? Are you crazy? Haven't what you got last week from me bad enough when you used the knuckle of your fingers to jab my head? Did you think I was joking? I can take almost everything except someone hitting my head or throwing something targeting at my head. Yes I yelled vulgarities, yes i threw the folders and the recycled bag back at you. So? I don't really F-ing care. You mess with me and my head, I will kill you.

Thursday Blues

It is cliche to say Monday Blues. This time Thursday is unexpectedly a bad day. Scary enough, it is so close to the weekend I wonder if the unhappiness will rub onto it.  So I was trying to be helpful yet not practical. So I felt so bad I just had to do something about it. So I was being chided for wasting money despite good intentions. Whatever. It is wasting my god-damn time trying so hard, ending up making BIG mistakes and getting unappreciated.

To hell with it. And you.

Great Expectations

I sometimes wish I wasn't born. I do not wish to go through certain things in life or feel a certain way. I never thought my life would turn out this way. At 30 and still not achieving much. There isn't even a sense of achievement. No satisfaction when it comes to career. I am tired. Tired of living.

The Way You Make Me Feel

You make me feel special,
You make me feel new,
You make me feel loved,
With everything you do.
You hold me close when I am sad.
You wipe the tears from my face.
Every time we are together,
It seems like the perfect place.
My eyes light up when you enter a room.
I smile when we are together.
No matter how bad things are,
You always make them better.
I love the way you kiss me,
The way you hold me tight.
I love the way you touch me,
I could be with you all night.
I love the way you can make me laugh
For absolutely no reason at all.
I love how no matter what I do,
You will be there to catch me when I fall.
I just want you to know,
That even though we always fight,
I will always love you!
No matter what, day or night.

By Amanda Standridge

Mirror Mirror

Always in your shadows.

Always second place.

Meeting another dead end

I am not satisfied, not to say the least, contented.

It is once again another time in my life where I ask myself which road to take and what should I do next?

Is it because I am not satisfied with whatever I do? Or is it I simply get bored easily? Or perhaps I need a job that keeps me on my toes every day?

Wrong turns. Dead ends.

Dance With Me Tonight

Upbeat tempo to sing along to! I had to post something on a date that happens once every 4 years!

Spotting something new

I have a new blogskin! The old one has been there for awhile now and though I found it hard to part with it, I believe it's time to make way for a new one; something even more simple, with pleasant-on-the-eye colours. I found the cat on top of the dog sketched-like drawing cute and interesting. The space for text is larger too compared to the previous one that allows only a narrow column for contents. And since this is the so-called first post in the new skin, it should sing of a happy tune. Won't you agree?

The 25 Feb weekend had been marvellous as usual with my splendid date - Baby Chee. I won us a 2D1N stay at The Regent Singapore courtesy of Class 95's Love Songs with Yaz segment. This included breakfast for 2 at Basilico and Baby managed to secure us a late check out at 3pm. We had a good time relaxing, frolicking in the pool, tanning even without the sun and walking about Orchard dressed to the nines.

After check out, we headed to Old Airport Road for some good ol' hawker food - 50 sticks of satay, 6 grilled chicken wings, $5 char kuay teow and $4 osyter omelette. Weiliang joined us too and treated us to the famous Lao Ban bean curd which he queued up real long for. Although we didn't get to feast on hokkien mee (this dish is special because we shared a plate together on our first date) that day, I enjoyed the whole experience much - PURE GLUTTONY!

Thank you BB!

What if one day I died?

Would you remember only the good?
Would you cry?
Would you visit me at my grave?
Would you realise that life is short?
Would you carry on living happily?
Would you pray for me?
Would you think of me?
Would you miss me?

Please don't be sad.
Please don't regret.

Y

Why do you make me cry?
To see the tears fall from my eyes?

Why do you make me cry?
To watch the rain fall from the sky?

Why do you make me cry?
To worsen the pain inside?

Y?

2012

Happy New Year 2012!

Celebrated my birthday at Pan Pacific Hotel Singapore. It was a marvellous 3 days 2 nights experience where on the eve of the new year saw me hitting Bonta in a sexy short dress with my (recently much hyped about) A & F model body-look-alike boyfriend. It was a mouth watering dinner made more memorable with the company of my best feline friend and her husband. Intellectual conversations were the dinner highlights.

The four of us ushered in the New Year in a traffic jam but we still managed to have a full view of the fireworks display which were awesome.

Thank you Baby Chee for the hotel stay and the Bonta dinner. What a way to end 2011!

A Special Day

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
BABY CHEE !!!

When you are in love

When you are in love,

it is like a walk in the park
there is nothing that can't be solved
amazing things happen
sparks fly
hugs and kisses are never enough
two hearts beat as one.

It is only a number game

Sometimes I wonder if I should be honest in my blog. I mean, not that I have never been but there are somethings that maybe others prefer to be discreet about.
Today, I feel that age just caught up with me. I remembered I drew up a plan in my head during my younger years; to marry at the age of 26; have kids by 30 and have a good career going for me. It was a good dream coming to think about it now. I am 29, ok almost, not doing something I really want and also not married, let alone have kids. I wonder how long this phase will last.
I know I am ambitious. Somewhere within me is still aggressive, still yearning to do more with my life, aspiring to earn lots and be debt free.
I would say the biggest regret was to enter into a corporate board a little too early and not given the opportunity to ggrow, bogged down by processes and bureucracy, stiffling my creativity. Now I am nowhere. No experience well enoguh to render me a higher position, no company willing to give me the opportunity. Maybe the regret should not be the first job but the wrong course of study during uni days.
so now what? Start all over since after all, they always say the sky's the limit and age is only a number? Easy to say when you don't've plans to settle down, have kids or worry about your finances in the long run.

All of it gives me stress. Day by day, year by year. Sigh..

I Know What Love Is

"You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection" ~ Teachings of Buddha

I know what love is when I find someone I cannot live without.
I know what love is when we are apart, our hearts still beat as one.
I know what love is when we forgive our mistakes and move on.
I know what love is when you look at me.
I know what love is when you hold my hand.
I know what love is when you kiss me.
I know what love is when you comfort me.
I know what love is when you shelter me from harm.
I know what love is when I recollect how we first met.
I know what love is when you tell me that I am the best thing that has happened in your life.
I know what love is when I am with you.



This is love.



I Love You.

Fear

As I go to bed with a heavy heart and with tears in my eyes, all I can think about is the fear within. The fear of losing, the fear of ending up where I started, the fear of just living in my past and never moving on, the fear of not being able to stay sustainable in life, the fear of saying the wrong things, fear that I am simply not good enough.

sometimes, when fear consumes you, you are left helpless and not know what to do. You want to tell someone about how you feel but it is difficult to spill the beans. I am choosing the best way I know how - blog. Blog about an emotion that can spin out of control when the mind is weak.

I might be losing my focus in life suddenly. It is this sense of lost in direction that makes me wonder which path to take next? Will choosing the wrong one bring me times of darkness and change I may not be able to accept?

I am so unsure right now. I don't know where to go from here.