Heading Back into Fossil Age

Amazing how my life takes a turn. From one bureaucratic structure to another. I thought it was all over. I was happy. I tried something new for a month. And for the sake of money, I went back into what I never thought I would and told myself I never will. External forces affected my decision in a way. I feel so handicapped all of a sudden because I thought since they loved standardisation, shouldn't their IT be standard across the board too? People say I should not complaint so much because I should see myself - an irritated, frustrated young lady who doesn't know how lucky I am to have a job in such bad times. It is affecting my life, and I am taking it out on my boyfriend too! Who wouldn't get pissed if I repeat the same things over and over again when asked, "So how are you in your new job?" But look, who ever tells you things like, "My work don't require the internet so I don't see why you are so flustered without it?" Others go, "Relax man! Enjoy your honeymoon period. Why so gan jiong?" No wonder people there are totally oblivious to what is happening outside and totally fossil aged. Of course, one of me cannot instil change. People in such an organisation hate changes. Every corner lies an imaginery sign saying "Don't Rock My Boat, Please!"

I know it's bad to even mention that I need the internet for my personal agenda. Actually, if I don't have assignments or ain't studying now, I will just follow the rest and enjoy my honeymoon, reading my own book. accessing only the intranet and the intranet alone, and the great masterpiece called the Masterplan!! I hear you..."Not Happy, QUIT LAH! Complaint so much for what?" It's for the money remember? And yes, I will go on JUST FOR THE MOOLAH!!! It's hell of alot you know.....and now that I am almost broke, with monthly bills that never stop, I have to work.....and since I chose this path, made this decision knowing all too well what I am getting into (but I really didn't know it was that bad...worse than my previous similar sector) I will survive and perservere!!!!

Sorry to those who had to put up with me and my extreme anger the past 3 days. Ok, I have only been working for 3 days and I am telling the world I cannot take it anymore. What's wrong with me men? Not happy to have a job? Where is the contentment?

Corny as it may seem, I started work on 1 April. I am starting to wonder if it's all a bad joke.